Journal

One of our dogs killed one of our kittens last night. A few months ago, one of the stray cats in our neighborhood had kittens in our garage. Daily temperatures this August remained well above 100 degrees consecutively, so, we decided to bring the kittens inside until things cooled off. We kept them locked in … Continue reading Fat Cat

I've spent the bulk of my morning and early afternoon warring against a weed-whacker that just decided to quit working. This has been the first summer in about ten years that we didn't pay for a yard crew to come out. With the extra time on my hands (apparently, I've taken a two year sabbatical), … Continue reading Beaver Nuggets

Thunder and lightning and clouds without water - just another disappointment. The rain finally came, accompanied by the softly rolling thunder, these are the days I have loved since my youth. On my drive home last night I watched as lightning flashed in the distance, and, for whatever reason, it reminded me of those carefree … Continue reading Us and Them

Welcome to the New World Order. Never in a thousand years did I think it would be like this. Mutilating our children's genitalia, pornography in the schools, demonization of parents who protest these atrocities, completely open borders - there's just too much to even get in to. At this point, I don't know if America … Continue reading Decay

I can't imagine being born into this thing or living most of my life under its yolk. I look at celebrities when they first started out to who they are now, to who they've become, and I'm astounded at the transformation. They become a completely different person, unrecognizable in some cases, and so far removed … Continue reading Come Out of Her

My neighbors were firing off a gun last night, rapid succession, one right after another, pop pop pop pop pop, and then a few minutes later, pop pop pop pop pop. This went on for about ten minutes until another neighbor yelled, "Cut that shit out!" One lone pop, and then, silence. This is life … Continue reading Breathe

My stepdad died about two years ago. He'd been sick for a while. I saw posts from his children on Facebook saying that he didn't have much time left, and I actually thought about visiting. I contemplated whether I should see him one last time, get everything out that I needed to get out, give … Continue reading Stepping Stones

I applied for a job today that I actually kind of want, but the idea of interviewing for it absolutely terrifies me. It's been fifteen years since I've been on a job interview, and I wasn't all that good at it back then. In two more months it will be a year since I lost … Continue reading Red Wave

It's on days like this when I wish God would just take me out of here. If it weren't for my mom, I would have no reason to be here. I feel absolutely worthless and my prayers have gone unanswered. Maybe I've been wrong about everything, and if that's true, I would rather seize to … Continue reading Mocking Birds

I just wish they'd go away. Seven long years and I'm still waiting for this to be over. Another due date is due as Halloween lurks right around the corner -- I guess I'll find out soon enough. So, I'm attempting to start journaling again. If what I believe is going to happen actually happens, … Continue reading Coffee Break