“Deliver my soul from the sword; my darling from the power of the dog.” (Psalms 22:20 KJV)

It was an awkward moment. Two and a half years before the big 40 and things were already going downhill. I tried to keep it to myself, but after two weeks without a bowel movement, I decided to voice my concerns. My best friend (who prided herself on her daily, if not twice daily deposits) looked visibly stunned, and suggested (if not demanded) that I take some laxatives. Fine. Good idea. Thirty-six hours later, nothing. That’s when I found myself in that awkward moment seated on the couch with a ninety-year-old woman discussing a medical condition known as fecal impaction. “I’ve been in the hospital for it twice already,” my elderly aunt explained. Wonderful. Little did I know at the time, my DNA had been temporarily hijacked. Although my body eventually regulated, six months later I experienced “the flood.” Wave after wave, pins and needles burrowed into my forehead as tremors coursed through my limbs. Wave after wave. 

The news website Liberty Voice, published an article in 2013 entitled Brain Waves and Sex, discussing brain neurons in relation to sexual stimulation. Barry Komisaruk, a psychology professor at Rutgers University, conducted a study which found that during the height of sexual stimulation nearly the entire brain is lit up. As the brain recruits other neurons, the activity spreads to two parts of the brain called the cerebellum and the frontal cortex until almost the entire brain system becomes active. The article then goes on to describe something known as entrainment. “Entrainment means that you come into ‘sync’ with someone or something else – essentially you get on the same ‘brainwave’ as them… During the time considered ‘foreplay’ the heart and brainwaves begin to automatically move into coherence. When you are in coherence [entrainment], the alpha and theta brain waves produced bring the left and right brain hemispheres into balance and light up the entire brain. These techniques are explained more in depth in tantric and Egyptian alchemical texts.”

So, here’s the breakdown: through fornication, it is possible for your body to become in synch with someone or something else by means of the cardiac cycle and brain waves. This is the main concept in understanding what Aleister Crowley meant when he said, “our order possesses the key which opens up all Masonic secrets, namely, the teachings of sexual magic, and this teaching explains, without exception, all the secrets of Freemasonry.” Entrainment during fornication is the key, question is, with whom or what, exactly, are you coming into synch?

The term hieros gamos or “holy marriage” describes a sexual ritual that plays out a marriage between a god and a goddess. The concept can be found in various religions and teachings from around the world including Hinduism, Tantric Buddhism, Wicca, alchemy and shamanism. Although the names of the deities vary (in shamanism they’re known as spirit spouses while “incubus” or “succubus” are used in folklore and mythology), they all have two defining elements – contact with a human host through dreams and a sexual-spiritual union. But the obvious question remains, and that is, how can a person become entrained or in synch with a spirit during fornication? Well, this is the big secret, and while I don’t completely understand it myself, I believe it to be true nonetheless. It is the most outlandish theory I’ve ever come across in my entire life, but it is biblical, and as far as I can tell, it is the abomination of desolation spoken of in The Book of Daniel and by Jesus in the New Testament:  

“And arms shall stand on his part, and they shall pollute the sanctuary of strength, and shall take away the daily sacrifice, and they shall place the abomination that maketh desolate.” (Daniel 11:31 KJV)
“And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved. But when ye shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing where it ought not, (let him that readeth understand,) then let them that be in Judæa flee to the mountains:” (Mark 13:13-14 KJV)

The word “abomination” is described as a “detestable act” or “detestable thing” and is often seen as a term for an idol in the Bible. In the Book of Daniel, the daily sacrifice is removed and replaced with the abomination or idol, but what kind of idol are we dealing with, exactly? What “thing” could be so abhorrent and inexcusably detestable? Christians recognize Jesus as being a replacement for the daily sacrifice, our Saviour, sacrificed once on the cross thereby conquering sin and death as well as the need for a daily sacrifice. Now, flip that upside down and replace Jesus Christ with a dying god, sacrificed over and over and over again, a daily sacrifice that is in a constant state of falling, alive but dead, was, and is not, and yet is. Imagine if that detestable thing, that dying god, were an actual person – this is the big secret hiding at the bottom of the rabbit’s hole. These idols, these human beings, are turned to stone, petrified like wood, and calcified like bone. They are like whited sepulchers, like statues, which appear beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men’s bones:

“Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men’s bones, and of all uncleanness.” (Matthew 23:27 KJV)

How they remain in a constant state of falling, alive but dead, is complicated at best, and while I’m no scientist, I suspect it all goes back to the flood, the pineal gland, and neurons in the brain. The pineal gland (sometimes called the third eye) is key to the body’s internal clock because it regulates the body’s circadian rhythms which control our sleep/wake cycles. These biological rhythms are actually entrainable and can be reset by exposure to external stimuli like light or changes in temperature. The external stimulus used to entrain a rhythm is called the Zeitgeber, a German word literally meaning “time giver.” These dying gods are essentially the Zeitgebers, or in a sense, God, to whomever they fall into synch. They are the spirit spouses that haunt dreams and become entrained with someone during fornication, or more to the point, during the holy marriage. Their bodies are calcified like stone and frozen like snowmen, but the brain remains lit up like a bright red apple, or like a jack o’ lantern. They are the all-seeing eye at the top of the pyramid. They are the masonic light. 

The near-death experience I suffered where it felt like my whole body was being drained of all fluids, like cement was being poured over my head, was, I can only assume, something known as the kundalini flame. Sometimes called St. Elmo’s Fire, or the Eternal Flame, the kundalini fire is described as a primal or cosmic energy lying coiled at the base of the spine. In Hinduism, it’s described as “The Great Divine Mother.” In New Age teachings, it’s represented as either a goddess or sleeping serpent waiting to be awakened in order to obtain spiritual enlightenment. It has also been called an unconscious, instinctive, or libidinal force that, when awakened, travels up the spinal column to the top of the head. In his book, The Secret Teachings of all Ages, thirty-third degree mason, Manly P. Hall describes “sufficient similarity between the Masonic Hiram [Abiff] and the Kundalini of Hindu mysticism.” He refers to it as a “Spirit Fire” that moves through the spinal column and is, essentially, the Lost Key of Masonry:

“The exact science of human regeneration is the Lost Key of Masonry, for when the Spirit Fire is lifted up through the thirty-three degrees, or segments of the spinal column, and enters into the domed chamber of the human skull, it finally passes into the pituitary body (Isis), where it invokes Ra (the pineal gland) and demands the Sacred Name.” (Manly P. Hall, The Secret Teachings of all Ages)

So, to dissect this, “human regeneration” is the concept behind these dying gods. Hall refers to the pineal gland as the Egyptian sun god, Ra, where the spirit fire invokes the sacred name, or the god within. In my case, the god within would be River. He was my spirit spouse, the Zeitgeber to whom my body had fallen into synch through our brain waves. My reoccurring dreams about him, the feeling that someone was in my head, my belief that he wasn’t actually dead – River was the god who had found a key. He was, in a sense, the skeleton key, or the Lost Key of Masonry. He was the spirit fire who awakened the sleeping serpent and sparked the kundalini flame, thereby, opening the third eye, or perhaps even decalcifying the pineal gland, and although I recovered from the near-death experience, it is in this state of being that these dying gods remain.  

Research on mice suggests that changes in the function of the pineal gland might affect bone metabolism. By the time humans reach adulthood, the pineal gland is almost completely calcified. Likewise, throughout the human body, calcification occurs during a process known as ossification, which is bone remodeling, or the laying down of new bone. It takes about 25 years for human bones to become completely ossified. After that, we slowly begin losing bone mass, but what if that process was reversed and the body kept regenerating new bone? If the pineal gland affects bone metabolism, perhaps this theory may explain how these dying gods become, themselves, like whited sepulchers. I don’t completely understand how it’s done myself, but I believe it. Like the white rabbit with the pocket watch leading Alice into Wonderland, these dying gods are the illuminated ones. They are, essentially, the Illuminati. They are the most secret of secret societies and may very well explain the worldwide conspiracy behind the aliens and extra-terrestrial phenomena, but I’m getting way ahead of myself.

This thing, people, I’m telling you, it is a complicated system that steals souls through trickery, and once the initiation process is finished, say, three years down the road, three years after the holy marriage, three years after becoming entrained with an unknown god, most victims lose their faith in the Bible and in Jesus Christ completely. Once the initiate/victim enters Wonderland, the strong delusion is nearly inescapable. And these dying gods? Who are they? Where are they? How are they? I can’t say for sure. I can only speak from my own experience. I can only say that River Phoenix is (or was) one of them. Believe me, I know how crazy this sounds, but it’s all true. When we hear about celebrities joining the Illuminati or selling their souls to the devil for fame and fortune, this is how it’s done, this is what they’re talking about. For many, I would say that this rock bottom, in-limbo status is the inevitable end just as my “friend” Midnight pointed out on my blog: “Stick it out because the story all ends the same way for us, anyhow…” For most of them, I would sadly agree.

In the same comment, Midnight went on to tell me,“Don’t carry the weight of The World on your shoulders,” which is to say, the weight of these dying gods is on your shoulders. The capitalization of the phrase “The World” is a direct reference to this underground, under the sea (so to speak), Atlantis-like World where the enlightened-ones dwell. Like bullies on the playground, their torment is relentless, but this word of advice from my online “friend” was more of a curse than friendly advice. Once again, it’s the dark sentences of witchcraft. Like the dog trainer telling the hungry pack of hounds to attack, my online “friend” was setting me up to be the next victim, the next daily sacrifice for a coven’s unatoned sins. This is the concept behind their wicked system, and as I understand it now, I don’t think they expected me to survive the flood. All that followed next was damage control on their part.

These dying gods, these dogs, physically attack the mind with a flood of electricity. Like a prisoner strapped down in an electric chair, they attack their victims through electrical currents to the brain. These illuminated ones, the so-called Illuminati, are weaved together like a daisy chain, wired together in an electronic sequence or ring through electrical signals in the brain – electricity, light, the Zeitgebers, the external stimuli. They are of one mind, the hive mind, spiritually bonded and yoked together; they attack like an unseen bolt of lightning initiating people like myself into the fold, grafted in and linked together like another brick in the wall. They are the building blocks of temples made by man. They are the taps at my window, the static in the air, the snap, crackle and pops heard throughout my electrical devices at work and at home. So, perhaps the weight of The World is on my shoulders, but I’m no longer linked in to their dying world. My yoke has been broken, and I mean to tell the truth.

In the comment posted on my blog, Midnight quoted the Beatles song “Hey Jude” with the lyric “don’t carry the weight of the world upon your shoulders,” which is another interesting clue. River’s middle name was “Jude” after all, but the real importance is the placement of the name. To be in the middle is to be at an equal distance between two ends. Alive but dead. Was and is not, and yet is. The middle of the road. Think of J.R.R. Tolkien’s Middle-earth (where most of his stories were set) where wizards, elves, dark lords, and mythical creatures come to life. This is the concept here. Just like the poem from The Lord of the Rings, these dying gods are the rings that bind the victim/initiate after the holy marriage. “One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them, One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them.”

Within his stories, Tolkien translated the name “Middle-earth” as Endor, which comes directly from the Bible. Endor is where Saul visited the witch who had a familiar spirit in 1 Samuel 28. In the Bible, familiar spirits are always associated with witchcraft, necromancy, and wizards. To be clear, necromancy is the practice of summoning the dead either by their spirit or by raising them bodily. It is usually done for the purpose of divination, to foretell future events, to discover hidden knowledge, to bring someone back from the dead, or to use the deceased as a weapon, which is the case with The World. In Saul’s case, he hoped to learn of future events. God would no longer speak to him through dreams or by prophets, so Saul asked the witch to bring up the prophet Samuel. “I pray thee, divine unto me by the familiar spirit, and bring me him up, whom I shall name unto thee.” The woman then asked, “Whom shall I bring up unto thee?” and Saul answered, “Bring me up Samuel.” When Saul asked what she saw, the witch replied, “I saw gods ascending out of the earth.” Saul then asked the woman in what form “Samuel” appeared, and the woman replied, “An old man cometh up; and he is covered with a mantle.” The verse then says that Saul “perceived that it was Samuel,” and he bowed down.

Although it is widely believed that Saul was actually in contact with Samuel, it goes against God’s Word. The key to this story is that Saul “perceived that it was Samuel,” however, if God quit talking to Saul through the prophets, then this new god whose identity was covered by a cloak, couldn’t have been the prophet Samuel. It was a familiar spirit imposing as Samuel divined by the witch. It was a god whom Saul knew not but perceived it to be Samuel. The next day, just as the familiar spirit had predicted, Saul fell upon his own sword. This story paints a picture of the Illuminati system. The taps at my window, along with the snap, crackle and pops heard throughout my electrical appliances, are a form of communication, but it’s not River who’s communicating with me, it’s a familiar spirit imposing as River or whoever I perceive it to be. If I were to trust in “his” word, or attempt to engage in conversation, what would have been my fate? Much like every other victim/initiate, surely, I would have ended up like Saul and fallen upon my own sword, that is to say, my own tongue. Surely, I would have ended up like them. These dying gods are a kingdom divided, or a temple divided; they are part iron and part clay:

“And whereas thou sawest iron mixed with miry clay, they shall mingle themselves with the seed of men: but they shall not cleave one to another, even as iron is not mixed with clay.” (Daniel 2:43 KJV)

They are like the giants, products of the mingling of mankind’s seed, or mankind’s DNA, which resulted in the corruption of all flesh upon the earth, and so God brought the flood. Reverse that and you get a flood of electricity as these dying gods mingle themselves with the seed of men. We see this in Genesis chapter six when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men and bare children. If we accept that the sons of God were angelic beings and the daughters of men were human women, then we have a biblical account of the holy marriage: 

“There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.” (Genesis 6:4 KJV)

These dying gods are like the giants, products of the holy marriage and used like dogs for the purpose of weapons. In 1 Samuel chapter seventeen, Goliath asked David, “Am I a dog, that thou comest to me with staves?” and the answer is “yes” he was. Goliath then cursed David by his gods who were, essentially, the fallen angels of whom he descended. His weapon was a spear whose staff was “like a weaver’s beam.” A staff is not only a supporting rod, but also a group of people all serving the same head, all supporting and working for the same god, weaved together like a loom, like a daisy chain.   

The Great Sphinx in Egypt is a perfect example of this divided kingdom. It has the head of a man and the body of a beast, part iron and part clay, part god and part man. Alive but dead. Was and is not, and yet is. Middle-earth. Fittingly enough, the Great Sphinx is made of limestone which is a sedimentary rock composed mainly of skeletal fragments of marine organisms. Its main component is calcium carbonate, which is the carbonic salt of calcium. Like whited sepulchers, the pyramids at Giza house the embalmed bodies of ancient Egypt’s kings and queens as the Great Sphinx guards their royal tombs. The abomination of these dying gods is a practice, a religion that originated in ancient Egypt, and although it is widely accepted that The Great Sphinx has the body of a lion, there are some theories that suggest it was originally a statue of the dog-headed god, Anubis, who watched over the dead and was the god of embalming. Either way, The Great Sphinx represents the coming together of two kingdoms, iron and clay, and the corruption of man’s seed. It embodies the very heart of Egypt:

“The burden of Egypt. Behold, the LORD rideth upon a swift cloud, and shall come into Egypt: and the idols of Egypt shall be moved at his presence, and the heart of Egypt shall melt in the midst of it.” (Isaiah 19:1 KJV)

The Great Sphinx is a giant idol that illustrates the in-limbo status of these dying gods. It is an abomination, but that’s not to say that the “deceased” humans involved are evil or even responsible for grafting people into their dying world. Their bodies are, essentially, possessed by an evil spirit, a familiar spirit, like hosts to an interdimensional virus that spreads like an all-consuming cancer. They are like the host of heaven, worshipped, idolized, glorified, and canonized by living family members, friends, fans, and followers of the same religious doctrine. They are made as gods. They are new gods that come newly up or strange gods to whom idols are carved. They are in a constant state of falling, indefinitely fixed to a cross like some crucifix hung on a wall. They are linked together like the beads of a rosary chain. Let him that read understand:   

“They provoked him to jealousy with strange gods, with abominations provoked they him to anger. They sacrificed unto devils, not to God; to gods whom they knew not, to new gods that came newly up, whom your fathers feared not.” (Deuteronomy 32:16-17 KJV)
“Cursed be the man that maketh any graven or molten image, an abomination unto the LORD, the work of the hands of the craftsman, and putteth it in a secret place. And all the people shall answer and say, Amen.” (Deuteronomy 27:15 KJV)

These dying gods are the molten images of those who have fallen victim to the witchcraft of a false religion. In Exodus 32, the children of Israel lost patience when Moses delayed coming back down from Mt. Sinai, so they asked his brother Aaron to “make us gods, which shall go before us.” They then broke off their golden earrings and gave them to Aaron who cast them into the fire. When a golden calf jumped out, they declared, “these be thy gods, O Israel.” Their separate pieces of gold formed one molten image, one golden calf, one beast, one ring to rule them all, and they themselves became as gods, gods which shall go before them, like familiar spirits, like new gods that came newly up out of the fire, like the mythical phoenix bird, here is the double meaning – make US gods.      

The kundalini flame, which I’ve likened to a flood of electricity from these jack o’ lantern gods, can be interpreted in the Bible by the phrase “pass through the fire.” This term is found in relation to familiar spirits, necromancy and witchcraft as well as the idol known as Molech. While it is widely believed that Molech was a god to whom child sacrifices were made, there is a deeper meaning here. Giving seed unto Molech may not only apply to child sacrifice, but also to DNA, fornication, and the corruption of flesh. The first five verses of Leviticus 20 deal with God condemning those who give their seed unto Molech, and uses such terminology as “go a whoring” and “commit whoredom” in reference to the Ammonite idol:

“Then I will set my face against that man, and against his family, and will cut him off, and all that go a whoring after him, to commit whoredom with Molech, from among their people.” (Leviticus 20:5 KJV)

In fact, the first mention of Molech in Leviticus 18 comes between a series of commandments condemning lascivious behavior:

“Moreover thou shalt not lie carnally with thy neighbour’s wife, to defile thyself with her. And thou shalt not let any of thy seed pass through the fire to Molech, neither shalt thou profane the name of thy God: I am the LORD. Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination. Neither shalt thou lie with any beast to defile thyself therewith: neither shall any woman stand before a beast to lie down thereto: it is confusion.” (Leviticus 18:20-23 KJV)

The holy marriage, the kundalini flame, the dying gods, the mingling of mankind’s seed, iron and clay, the golden calf – Molech is the embodiment of this perverted and far-reaching conspiracy. In Jeremiah 32, God uses the phrase “neither came it into my mind, that they should do this abomination” in reference to passing sons and daughters through the fire unto Molech. This is indicative of a victim’s mind coming into synch with another god after the kundalini flame is lit or after passing through the fire. Why else would He say, “neither came it into my mind?” God’s Word is showing us through example how this evil system works:

“And they built the high places of Baal, which are in the valley of the son of Hinnom, to cause their sons and their daughters to pass through the fire unto Molech; which I commanded them not, neither came it into my mind, that they should do this abomination, to cause Judah to sin.” (Jeremiah 32:35 KJV)

In the books of both Amos and Acts, we are given more insight into who or what Moloch (with a different spelling) represents. Both verses reference the tabernacle of Moloch, or the temple of Moloch. A temple is a dwelling place for God (or a god). In 1 Corinthians 3:16, Paul tells us that we, as born-again Christians, are the temple of God and that “the Spirit of God dwelleth in you.” Flip that upside down and you get the tabernacle of Moloch. You get the dwelling place of a different god. Both verses also use the phrase “the star of your god” in reference to images and figures which were made to worship, but Amos 5:26 uses the terminology your Moloch. It suggests that, perhaps, there is more than one Moloch. Perhaps Molech represents each one of these dying gods, these golden idols which they made to themselves, whether it be Chiun, Remphan, or the star of my god, River.   

“But ye have borne the tabernacle of your Moloch and Chiun your images, the star of your god, which ye made to yourselves.” (Amos 5:26 KJV)
“Yea, ye took up the tabernacle of Moloch, and the star of your god Remphan, figures which ye made to worship them: and I will carry you away beyond Babylon.” (Acts 7:43 KJV)

River was the god within who found a key. He was my spirit spouse, the Zeitgeber to whom my body had fallen into synch after the holy marriage. He was my Moloch. The word “Molech” is thought to be derived from the word “king” which brings us back to the oath of the lion’s paw. In the Book of Revelation, Jesus is referred to as The Lion of the Tribe of Juda, the King who is the only one worthy of opening the book of life. Jesus is worthy to open the book because he is the book of life, he is the Word of God. Flip that upside down and replace Jesus with a type of Moloch, replace Jesus with River. The oath of the lion’s paw, or the word of god, can be found in dreams, poems, journal entries, and blog posts recorded throughout the better part of my life. All those words and images remained dormant in my sub-conscious mind, coiled at the base of my spine like a sleeping serpent. After passing through the fire, those forgotten words, lost dreams and visions came to life as if melted down and then transfigured into something new. Prophecy was to be fulfilled as it was written all those years ago. Question was, which oath was I expected to perform and how did my story go?