Less than six months after River’s death, in the early days of April 1994, Kurt Cobain was found dead in his home from an apparent gunshot wound to the head. He was 27. The same concepts found in River’s story can also be found in Kurt’s, and like River, he appeared to hate the very same occult system in which he found himself.
Nirvana released their third and final studio album, In Utero, in August of 1993. The album cover features the transparent body of a female with wings while the background looks to be a parched earth with deep cracks and crevices. The background represents being passed through the fire, and the angelic female represents the mark. She represents the word in the flesh, the word in utero, or the beginning. She also represents the dying/golden god.
The third track off that album is a song titled, Heart-Shaped Box, written by Cobain in early 1992. Originally titled “Heart-Shaped Coffin,” it was the last song Cobain performed live with Nirvana on March 1, 1994 in Munich, Germany.
Mostly devised by Cobain, the video incorporates imagery from the film The Wizard of Oz, and it begins and ends with the same scene – an old man in a hospital bed.
The old man and the black cross on the floor represents the hanged man. A light shines through a crack in the curtains, passes over Dave Grohl’s knees, and shines on Kurt. If we go back to the R.E.M. song Monty Got a Raw Deal, the line “mischief knocked me in the knees” is a reference to the spot, the mark, or the word written in the flesh. Likewise, Aleka’s Attic’s Senile Felines also exemplifies this with the line “turn, face, bow.” It is the palindrome, or the beginning as the end, bowing down to face the mark (or the curse) in the flesh. The light shines on Kurt revealing that he was the hanged man.
The lyrics refer to this mark as a cancer, the line “when you turn black” referring to the word in the subconscious mind (white) coming to fruition (black). The song is addressed to the dying/golden god.
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak, I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for a week, I was drawn into your magnet tar pit trap, I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
The old man hangs on a cross wearing a Santa Claus hat. This represents the gift, the word in the flesh, or the present/present time. The three crows on the cross symbolize the godhead and the threefold cord. They also symbolize the golden/dying god.
In Edgar Allen Poe’s poem The Raven, the story begins with the narrator mourning the loss of his beloved Lenore when, suddenly, he hears a tapping at his window. A raven then flutters into his room, and although he is first intrigued by its presence, he quickly becomes annoyed and later outraged by its persistent indifference. He asks the raven a series of questions to which the bird only replies “nevermore.” Towards the end of the poem the narrator calls the bird a devil, a thing of evil, a demon, as he yells at the raven to depart from his chamber door, to which the bird replies “nevermore.”
This story sets the stage for the initial induction into this occult system. Victims/initiates will hear phantom pecks on the bedroom window much like pebbles hitting the glass. Like a form of animal conditioning, the pecks at the window from an invisible source become an infuriating nuisance. Edgar Allen Poe most likely derived his poem from a real life experience.
Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hate, Haight, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Your advice
A little girl in a white wizard’s costume observes human fetuses hanging from dead trees. Here again, we have the word in the flesh, the word in utero, or the beginning. The little girl in white represents the subconscious mind. The fetuses also represent the birth of the alien, the new man, or the hermaphrodite child. Like the cartoon caricatures on the trees in Stand By Me, they represent being “born again” and grafted in to that cursed tree.
Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet, Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath, Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black, Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back
Like the transparent figure with wings on the album cover, a large woman with wings reaches out for the fetuses. She represents this entire occult system, the mother, so to speak, or the queen of heaven to which vows and sacrifices are made. She represents the word in the flesh and the dying/golden god. She is the cancer.
Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hate, Haight, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Your advice
A close-up of the woman is shown with black blood (or Dark Blood) coursing through her veins. It is the word in the flesh or the devil’s DNA. It is the virus that forms the hermaphrodite child.
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak, I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for a week, I was drawn into your magnet tar pit trap, I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
The old man is shown again on a cross wearing a mitre instead of the Santa hat. This represents the godhead or the fruition of the word. It symbolizes his transition into a golden god.
Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hate, Haight, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Hey, Wait, I've got a new complaint, Forever in debt to your priceless advice, Your advice
The old man is now absent from the cross and the little girl is shown skipping through the field of poppies towards the dead trees. The large woman stands with her hands on her hips, her digestive system emphasized as a sort of womb. Notice, also, the dayglow red/orange sky. Again, this scene represents the birth of the dying/golden god or the hermaphrodite child.
The little girl’s white hat flies off her head. It resembles a flying saucer.
In the next scene, the white hat transforms into blue butterflies. The cross with the crows is seen in the red/orange background. The blue butterflies represent the word or prophecies from the dying/golden gods. They represent the spirits driving the artist’s hand and the subconscious mind.
The white hat lands in a puddle of water and turns black. The poppy flowers represent the sleeping word in the flesh, i.e., the subconscious mind. The hat turns black representing the fruition of the word.
The little girl, now in a black wizard’s costume, stands on the cross at the foot of the old man in the hospital bed. The three red chairs are now empty where the members of Nirvana were once seated – the fruition of the word, the godhead, and the threefold cord.
The old man is hooked up to an IV. A close-up of the fluid reveals a human fetus as well as a Gizmo-looking creature from the Gremlins. It is the translation or rebirth of the old man into the hermaphrodite child, a dying/golden god, or, to be more specific, an alien being.
Krist Novoselic (in black) drapes his arm around Dave Grohl (in blue) with Kurt Cobain in the foreground dressed in a silver shirt. The blue background is decorated with six-pointed bright-shining stars – the fruition of prophecy (symbolized by Krist and Dave) and the transformation of Kurt into a golden god.
Kurt’s left eye (controlled by the right side of the brain) is covered while his right eye stares into the camera. Here, we have the palindrome and the completion of the water cycle. From left to right and right to left, it is the translation of the word in the flesh. His silver shirt exemplifies this concept.
Like the metal hubcaps from R.E.M.’s Strange Currencies, the silver shirt represents the alchemical process that turns the body into the hermaphrodite child, the dying/golden god, and the alien being. It is the mercury of the philosophers (the minerals/metals in the digestive system) that turned the DeLorean into a time machine or into a flying saucer.
The three members of Nirvana dance around in a box beneath a black heart with windows of white light. This represents the word written on the table of the heart. It is the word in the DNA (the box).
The red box is filled with flowers/stars of light representing cells and amino acids in the body. Dave Grohl (in blue) represents prophecy being laid to rest. Kurt Cobain sits front and center in his silver shirt and yellow patches on his knees. He is out of time and returns to the last departed time, bowing down to face the prophecy in his blood. Krist Novoselic, in his black shirt and purple pants, stands behind Kurt like a giant, his head hitting the ceiling of the box. He represents Kurt’s transformation into a dying/golden god. Purple is the color for royalty, i.e., the golden god.
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